It all started pretty innocuously. Last month, one of my Chorus Girl sisters posted on her FB feed that she was going to start taking pole dancing classes soon. Before I knew it, I had Googled the pole dance school's website, and was checking out offerings. They had a great deal running: a 10-class card …
Bold Goals 2021
It's been an incredible year, in the truest sense of the word. It's hard for my brain to even accept the great divide between January 2020 and January 2021. It feels like a lifetime. We've had a pandemic that's killed nearly 400k people in the U.S., and 2.06 million worldwide as of today. People ignoring …
Mulling It Over
It's January 4th, and I'm still working out the final details of what my Bold Goals of 2021 will be. I'm not at a loss for things I'd like to accomplish. As always, that's the problem. There's so much that I want to do, be, see! It's more a question of narrowing down my many …
Final Bold Goals Check-in 2020
I'm not sure if any actual humans are reading this blog, since it sometimes feels like the only follows I'm getting are scam sites, but for any real people reading, this blog is an accountability thing. I haven't been keeping it very well (hence the non-existent readership), but whatever, I'm trying, and I'm not going …
2020 In Brief
It feels like I don’t have enough words to adequately explain what 2020 has been like, but I know that it’s my duty to give it a try. This year has definitely taken a toll on my psyche. So very much has happened in such a short time, and most of it has been dark …
Pivot?
Some days I wonder if my brain will ever get back to normal. But then I remember that there never was a "normal." Looking back over my life, it feels like I've always been in some state of flux or overwhelm. Maybe that's being human, or maybe that's just being an anxious human. How could …
Lost In Space
Adrift. Unmoored. Life support dwindling fast. These days I feel like I'm lost in space, my last tether to reality quickly unraveling. What is happening here? At the beginning of August, my three cats and I moved to the suburbs to live with my boyfriend and his two dogs. Our seven-being household is the only …
Pack Up The Cats (Thoughts On Moving)
https://www.youtube.com/embed/bF_oW1KxdzA I'm sitting on my mattress, on the floor, surrounded by cats and empty takeout containers. The apartment is nearly empty, and it suddenly feels so spacious. My clothes, books, and most of my crafting supplies and knick-knacks all went over to the new house last week, along with most of my kitchen stuff (hence …
Bold Goals 2020: Mid-Year Check-in
While I haven't been quite as diligent as I'd like with keeping my blog, my Bold Goals for the year have remained front and center in my life. Even with COVID-19 forcing the year to grind to a halt, I've been lucky enough to be able to keep plugging along. With it being almost June, …
Paying Attention
It's been a year, a month, and thirteen days since my dad died in his armchair, in my family living room. Last night, I heard his voice. My dad had a very specific sound that he'd make when he was obviously not paying attention to anything that you were saying, but was still trying to …
